Cunt.

Oh my god. I’m so strung all I can think about is just..WOW. I’m on 50-60 mgs of...

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 18:26:47 -0500

Oh my god. I’m so strung all I can think about is just..WOW. I’m on 50-60 mgs of Adderall and my heart beat is well above 100. My mommy brought home a new bottle yesterday. I love her!

Wow.

Sun, 19 Feb 2012 11:44:47 -0500

Now I’m sharing my little tweaking habit with my friends? I feel like a really, really bad person.

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Thu, 16 Feb 2012 12:52:12 -0500

cl3fa1ry: sleep y u no marry me? D:

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 12:50:13 -0500

cl3fa1ry:

sleep y u no marry me? D:

Trying to Impress Everyone

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 12:43:57 -0500

leragequit:

It’s like catching yourself on fire and running through a meth lab.

Ha.

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 12:40:43 -0500

Ha.

Ow ow ow ow..ow ow!

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 12:34:59 -0500

My head is KILLING me. I feel like my brain is swollen against my skull. :’( Fml.

lemonderp: omfg I’m a true 40’s kid.

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 12:32:16 -0500

lemonderp:

omfg

I’m a true 40’s kid.

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Thu, 16 Feb 2012 12:31:55 -0500

Uhm. I guess that was a yes.

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 03:35:10 -0500

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Thu, 16 Feb 2012 03:31:06 -0500

Yes. No. Yes. No. ..Maybe…Yes.. No?

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 01:45:51 -0500

I can’t decide weather to take this or not.. I’d be awake till about 8 a.m. and my heart might be a little fast when I go to the doctors. Still, I’m not taking any additional pills so it would be like just taking today’s dose early.. I probably won’t even feel it though. It would just be a waste.. I can’t help but wonder if my body would even register it..

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Thu, 16 Feb 2012 01:11:17 -0500

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Wed, 15 Feb 2012 21:45:45 -0500

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Wed, 15 Feb 2012 21:38:33 -0500

frankly, I do drugs to forget how utterly miserable I am when I'm sober. Drugs fill you with false happiness and alot of distractions and you meet alot of friends in the process,

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 21:38:08 -0500

cosmicdesigner:

friends who will ~~disappear just as fast~~ as the drugs.

you do not experiment with drugs,

they find their way into your life

to experiment with your mind.

they find the saddest of them all and make them

fall in love

and yet they ~~destroy~~ them while they are blinded by the euphoria.

oh drugs, you are a monster

and I cannot imagine myself without you.

Ugh.

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 21:36:05 -0500

If I take an Adderall and stay up tonight, my heart will still be beating fast when I go to the doctor tomorrow for my bronchidis. I don’t think the lady taking my pulse would be too happy.

I'm staying home again tomorrow.

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 21:25:11 -0500

To sleep, or not to sleep…what should I do..?

My grandpa came up to visit me last week.

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 09:18:00 -0500

I miss him. I only see him once a year. He’s getting old. 65 isn’t that old but he has severe back problems and has already had cancer once. My mom cried when he left. I don’t know why I didn’t. It’s so quiet without him here. You’d have to know my grandpa to understand. He’s loud and says whatever he wants. He’s sarcastic as hell and it’s hilarious. He’d have me in tears from laughter almost every day. We’d play cards every day for hours with my mom and his friend. Now that he’s gone, his friend doesn’t come around either. I feel so guilty. Almost the whole time he was here, I was either sleeping or in my room trying to hide that fact that I was strung out. I asked if my best friend could sleep over the first night he was here, so she could come with me to this the next day and I would have someone to talk to there. It’s understandable how he’d want it to be just our family but.. He got so angry with me. Apparently I have an attitude problem and I’m self centered. Everything’s “Me Me Me.” ”Just like the last time he was here.” The last time he was here, I was in the hospital. He sounds mean, yeah, but that’s the thing. That’s how he is: hardheaded and stubborn. He doesn’t mean it. He just can’t really keep his mouth shut. He loves me and my mom a lot. Now that he’s gone I realize why I put up with his shit.

ashbooann16: Have a happy, tit-filled Valentines Day. <3

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 09:07:34 -0500

ashbooann16:

Have a happy, tit-filled Valentines Day. <3