February 2012
60 posts
Oh my god. I’m so strung all I can think about is just..WOW. I’m on 50-60 mgs of Adderall and my heart beat is well above 100. My mommy brought home a new bottle yesterday. I love her!
Wow.
Now I’m sharing my little tweaking habit with my friends? I feel like a really, really bad person.
cl3fa1ry:
sleep y u no marry me? D:
Trying to Impress Everyone
leragequit:
It’s like catching yourself on fire and running through a meth lab.
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Ow ow ow ow..ow ow!
My head is KILLING me. I feel like my brain is swollen against my skull. :’( Fml.
Uhm. I guess that was a yes.
Yes. No. Yes. No. ..Maybe…Yes.. No?
I can’t decide weather to take this or not.. I’d be awake till about 8 a.m. and my heart might be a little fast when I go to the doctors. Still, I’m not taking any additional pills so it would be like just taking today’s dose early.. I probably won’t even feel it though. It would just be a waste.. I can’t help but wonder if my body would even register it..
frankly, I do drugs to forget how utterly...
cosmicdesigner:
friends who will disappear just as fast as the drugs.
you do not experiment with drugs,
they find their way into your life
to experiment with your mind.
they find the saddest of them all and make them
fall in love
and yet they destroy them while they are blinded by the euphoria.
oh drugs, you are a monster
and I cannot imagine myself without you.
Ugh.
If I take an Adderall and stay up tonight, my heart will still be beating fast when I go to the doctor tomorrow for my bronchidis. I don’t think the lady taking my pulse would be too happy.
I'm staying home again tomorrow.
To sleep, or not to sleep…what should I do..?
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My grandpa came up to visit me last week.
I miss him. I only see him once a year. He’s getting old. 65 isn’t that old but he has severe back problems and has already had cancer once. My mom cried when he left. I don’t know why I didn’t. It’s so quiet without him here. You’d have to know my grandpa to understand. He’s loud and says whatever he wants. He’s sarcastic as hell and it’s...
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I miss Her.
So much. We were so close once. I met her in a counseling program. I was there for depression, anxiety and self harm. She was there for the same reasons, plus anger. I was one of the only people who could make her feel better. We talked constantly. She left the program before me. I cried the entire day. We texted each other every day after that but we barley ever could see each other. We would...
“Make the lie. Make it big. Keep saying it, and eventually they will believe it.”
– Adolf Hitler
Words
anthonytherat:
People throw around words way too much. They probably don’t know the meaning, since they use them often. If you’re going to say something, think and make sure you actually mean it because some words are strong. Your words don’t mean shit if your actions don’t contradict. Remember, actions speak louder than words.
I hate my fucking life.
I owe 6 or 7 Adderall from the bottle and have almost no way of replacing them without skipping days. It sounds so easy but right now it’s the hardest thing in the world to me. I took 3 or 4 last night so I don’t even know how much I have left. I was chasing the high that I usually get all night, and only managed to achieve it once for a few minutes. I have bronchidis so I’ve...
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Honestly, I'm addicted to Adderall.
I haven’t been taking it long but I deffenitly haven’t been taking it how I should. I tried it a few weeks back with my best friend, and imedetely fell in love with it. A week later I managed to get 20mg Adderall SR prescribed. Yeah, I’m pretty sure I have ADD and it helps, but I can’t manage to stop taking it. The SR (6 hours) wears off during school, so I’m hoping...
I'd rather cuddle then have sex.
